Friday, September 12, 2008

Dreams...Dreams...Dreams..... [part one]

So, a couple weekends ago *at saturday, while waiting for my friend Bas to come to Gading from BSD*, I watched Queer As Folk *after watching Pushing Daisies*, the 2nd season. *Gosh! I love that show!*

Ok, ada 1 episode dimana salah satu tokohnya, si Michael Novotny itu "ngomel-ngomel" sendiri karena merasa tertinggal, just got stuck and never got the chance to make his dream come true. Beberapa tokohnya sudah berhasil menggapai mimpinya, seperti si Brian yang super berhasil *with-his-dream-job-as-a-account-executive-with-his-designer-clothes-and-shoes-and-a-car-and-a-loft-phuew!* yang dengan sombongnya mengatakan kalau dia mendapat pekerjaan di New York *padahal-ga-gitu*, dan Justin yang berhasil masuk ke Art School-walaupun-baru-aja-got-bashed-in-his-head-and-almost-lost-his-hand-movement-and-just-cheated-death. Michael merasa, "Sialan! Kok temen-temen gue bisa menggapai mimpi mereka, sedangkan gue nyangkut disini, kerja serabutan, gaji kecil, belum lagi diinjek-injek ama boss gue, sial!". Poor Michael, but hey! after selling his Captain Astro for USD 50.000,- he got what he wished for, to open a comic store, and he did! Yipiie!

Habis nonton, gue jadi ikutan berpikir, what is my dream exactly? What do I want or what do I want to achieve in life?
Tiba-tiba gue merasa, Hey! I am Michael Novotny, pre-dreams-come-true-before-having-his-own-comic-store. Yup, gue jadi berpikir sendiri, gila juga ya, I don't have any dreams, gue seperti orang yang tidak punya tujuan dalam hidup, gue bahkan tidak tahu, sebenarnya gue mau apa dengan hidup gue, apa sih yang sebenarnya gue mau?
I'm clueless, man! Totally-utterly-dreadfull-clueless.

Tapi setelah gue pikir-pikir kembali, maybe I do have dreams, hanya saja gue terpaksa harus mengubur jauh-jauh mimpi-mimpi itu karena sakit yang dulu diderita almarhum papi gue.
Yup, it turns out I have no time for being idealist, I have to be realistic. Sekarang, it's not about apa yang gue mau, apa yang gue impikan, tapi what my family needs from me.

But, what are my dreams exactly? Can somebody help me to rekindle it again? *hey silly, to help rekindled the dreams, you have to tell them all your dreams...stupid!!!*

So, helping Mr. E to rekindled his dream was going to be hell!!!! HELPPPP!!!!

xoxo,
E.

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